Hello world,
I don't know when I started this blog and I haven't been on it in a long time. I can never figure out how to set it up so that people can leave comments, etc. That is why I started a support group on Facebook and that has over 3,700 folks on it now. We have 6 Admins including myself because we need the help.
I just woke up and am drinking my coffee. I may go back to my cuddly bed in a bit and snuggle with my cat, Zoo Zoo. I am working part time next door with a hospice patient and even though I work only 2-3 days per week, it wears me out. She is close to her death, she is scared but she is still a pistol. She is a crabby person by nature and I have been practicing patience and tolerance with her. I snapped at her one time way back when and she backed down.
I have not been suicidal myself during this time. She wants to live and is pissed as hell that she is dying. She is only 48 years old. Being with her reminds me of what it was like when I was suicidal because I behaved the same crabby way she does now. All she wants is company yet she often snaps at those she loves and then they don't want to be around her. Her mom and sister push themselves past their reactions to this and attempt to remain compassionate with her. They do a great job. This is wearing them down a great deal.
I could write more yet I need to check the FB page and see what is going on. We have had problems of late with crabby people and then I become very crabby and snapped on the group. That is not who I want to be. My life is unfolding in simple yet lovely ways and I am just following Lily's lead. Lily is my friend of Higher Understanding and she kicks my ass when I need it and loves me all the time. She loves me, warts and all. My mom loved me warts and all as well.
Jacque
I don't know when I started this blog and I haven't been on it in a long time. I can never figure out how to set it up so that people can leave comments, etc. That is why I started a support group on Facebook and that has over 3,700 folks on it now. We have 6 Admins including myself because we need the help.
I just woke up and am drinking my coffee. I may go back to my cuddly bed in a bit and snuggle with my cat, Zoo Zoo. I am working part time next door with a hospice patient and even though I work only 2-3 days per week, it wears me out. She is close to her death, she is scared but she is still a pistol. She is a crabby person by nature and I have been practicing patience and tolerance with her. I snapped at her one time way back when and she backed down.
I have not been suicidal myself during this time. She wants to live and is pissed as hell that she is dying. She is only 48 years old. Being with her reminds me of what it was like when I was suicidal because I behaved the same crabby way she does now. All she wants is company yet she often snaps at those she loves and then they don't want to be around her. Her mom and sister push themselves past their reactions to this and attempt to remain compassionate with her. They do a great job. This is wearing them down a great deal.
I could write more yet I need to check the FB page and see what is going on. We have had problems of late with crabby people and then I become very crabby and snapped on the group. That is not who I want to be. My life is unfolding in simple yet lovely ways and I am just following Lily's lead. Lily is my friend of Higher Understanding and she kicks my ass when I need it and loves me all the time. She loves me, warts and all. My mom loved me warts and all as well.
Jacque
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